Apparently…. in eyes of those I hold most dearest… I will always be weird and stupid. I thought the ridicule had stopped. I can still hear the hurtful words being said over and over again. They sting like lemon juice in an open cut.
I usually pride myself on my weirdness… but my pride loses its protective shield when my own disablities are used aganist me as a weapon of hurtful means.
I bet none of this even makes any sense or grammatically correct… because apparently I’m stupid …
I haven’t been working on my book and not doing so makes me feel bad. I don’t know why. Haha. I have some insane writer’s block and I guess I lack the motivation :(
I feel like I should have the motivation. Writing a novel and having it published is on my bucket list ;P